Adoration

I cannot stress to you enough the importance of adoration.

In fact, I don't even know what to say here, but I know I need to say something in case it causes ANYONE to think twice...because I want you to think twice. I want you to experience everything our Lord has to offer and if you are bored or "whatever" about your faith, take another look.

It hurts to think that so many Catholics don't even know about adoration, and some that do don't care. It hurts to think that I was that Catholic for so long. I can't even begin to comprehend where I might be right now if I had just known...

I needed tremendous healing this year and I had no idea where to go and who I could go to. Actually, I pretty much couldn't go to anyone at all. I was stuck and lost, and I know how cliche this sounds, but it's true. One time I asked my friend, "What happened to my life?" and she so bluntly responded, "It went up in flames." Haha. Sadly, that is exactly what happened. However, to heal from everything, it wasn't my sisters, friends, family, counseling, or spiritual direction that I needed. Some of them offered support and help, yes, but ultimately we can only be truly healed by Jesus Christ. The only thing left for me to do was to just go to him in the chapel and so many times I just sat there crying, sometimes out of anger, sometimes out of frustration, oftentimes out of despair. Until we establish a relationship with him and GO TO HIM, then he can't fully help us.

You see, recognizing that he is here and wants us to come to him is the first step. The second is to actually desire it yourself, and the third is to DO IT. The third is OH SO IMPORTANT and so many people never get there. Jesus is waiting for us! He is waiting for us in adoration and at Mass in the Eucharist yet we are so indifferent! Someone can sit and talk for hours about how awesome it is, and we can still be indifferent! I am probably writing this mostly in vain. But you know what? I don't care. I can try and convince everyone of the powerful experience of a Steubenville conference, but people will just stay indifferent. They will sit in their indifference and then wonder why life is in the "kind of sucking, but not really, yet I'm sad and I don't know why...damn isn't there more than this?" stage. Jesus is what's more! The Son of God, Savior of the world, is present in adoration every Friday at St. Peter & St. Paul Catholic Church, and EVERY DAY 24/7 at St. Joseph's. The Eucharist is made available to YOU and to ME every single day in Mass, but because it means we have to wake up at 7am we don't go.

Well I don't know about you, but I am ON FIRE for the Lord. Do you know what that feels like?! Did you know that it's possible, that it's not just a phrase made up for when you get really into praise and worship?? I didn't. I yearn, from the depths of my soul, to be with God in Heaven. It pains me to think that I have to wait to die to get there, that I have to keep living this life HERE when I'm meant for HIM up THERE. In adoration, I can't take my eyes off of Jesus and I wish that I could experience that peace FOREVER. Peace. Oh my gosh, peace is the best feeling I've ever experienced. I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing with my life. All I want to do is follow Jesus. Yet I am so peaceful! I don't worry about it one bit because I'm taken care of. The Holy Spirit is guiding me and I'm trying to surrender to him every moment of every day, even if that means taking the invitation to go to adoration when I'm just not in the mood.

That's another thing that baffles me about us...

Why are we so often "not in the mood?" What does that even mean? Not in the mood to see the LORD?! To be with Him? To experience Him? To praise Him? Wow, we're really going to suck in Heaven. (joke lol)

Anyway, the point is that we search and search for what's missing and making our lives crappy, yet it's right in front of us. HE is right in front of us. Stop searching for healing and fulfillment in all the places that people tell you to, in all the comfortable places. Don't you ever wonder why it's so uncomfortable in a supposed "comfortable" place? Does the "healing" or "fulfillment" you get ever last? I think that most of the time, we don't know what true healing is.

I probably don't either, but I DO know that I have healed from something that usually takes years, lifetimes...and I was only able to do so through the Eucharist and adoration.

I apologize if this all came off as arrogant, but really I can't fully describe how awesome adoration is, and it's so important that I had to write this, or write something...because you don't just keep something this incredible to yourself. People need to know about it.

I Lay It Down

Everything I am, everything I long to be
I lay it down at Your feet

Everything I am, everything I long to be
I lay it down at Your feet

I lay it down, I lay it down
I lay it down at Your feet
I lay it down, I lay it down
I lay it down at Your feet